慢左Ｎ日ｏ既人玩我又玩

ｆｒｏｍ　哩度

1.都在幾點睡？
幾點眼訓幾點訓

2.睡覺都穿什麼？
人地ｏ既底衫

3.睡前會做什麼？
合埋眼

4.床是什麼顏色？
木色

5.床上擺些什麼？
我自己

6.習慣側睡還是正睡？
背脊向天，但唔該唔好襯我訓覺企圖食我

7.有聽音樂睡覺的習慣嗎？
就算開住訓左都聽唔到啦，無

8.都聽些什麼類型的？
都話聽唔到，點知ｏ者

9.睡前會不會想些事情？
未訓即係清醒啦，乜有人清醒果時唔諗野架咩

10.都在想什麼？
吳彥祖幾時先投入我ｏ既懷抱

11.睡不著你會？
扮訓著

12.睡到一半突然醒來，之後就睡不著，你會？
打話嘈醒其他人，令到佢地都醒左訓唔返

13.午夜12點整，手機突然響了，你覺得是誰打來？
訓唔著打黎嘈醒人ｏ既人

14.會開燈睡覺嗎？
懶得熄咪開住訓囉

15.正當你快要睡著時，突然地震，你會？
等佢震完未死的話再訓

16.睡到一半被床底下的聲音吵醒，你覺得是什麼？
我隻狗發瘟欠丙

17.（承上題）；知道是什麼後，你會怎麼做？
咩都唔做

18.睡覺時最討厭聽到什麼聲音？
鬧鐘聲

19.你睡的正香時，突然被人叫起來，你覺得是什麼事？
小白叫我要訓返屋企訓唔好賴ｏ係佢個廳度

20.（承上題）；知道什麼事後，你會？
繼續訓ｏ係果度賴死唔走

21.有做夢的習慣嗎？
發夢哩家野好似唔係你想就有，何來習慣

22.你最有印象的是什麼夢？
惡夢

23.惡夢、春夢；你會選擇做哪個夢？
先惡後春丫唔該

24.能跟一個人睡覺，你會跟誰睡？
和我相愛ｏ既人。但係一世一齊訓定一晚訓一陣先？後者ｏ既話我要吳彥祖

25.想看誰睡覺的模樣？
睇黎做咩，平日合埋眼咪就係訓覺個樣囉，唔會好難想像ｏ者，唔使睇都估到啦

26.會抱著東西睡覺嗎？
有人抱人無人抱狗

27.喜歡睡在什麼床上？
唔係釘床就得啦

28.睡到一半突然肚子餓，你會？
訓返希望發夢食野

29.夢到有人說你活不過18歲，你會？
話佢錯，唔準唔好學人報夢，１８歲早已離我而去

30.最想去哪睡覺?
自己張床囉

31.睡像好看嗎？
邊個可以睇到自己訓覺個樣呀

32.有說過夢話嗎？
有

33.（承上題）；說些什麼？
自問自答

34.睡醒來發現自己不在床上，你覺得你在哪裡？
梳化上

35.給你安排一個夢，你會如何安排？
唔會實現ｏ既話唔要啦，醒返又咪係咁

36.睡到一半突然肚子痛，你會覺得如何？
唔舒服

37.什麼時候你才會想睡覺？
眼訓果時

38.有在家裡以外的地方睡過覺嗎？
有

39.什麼原因讓你在外睡覺？
眼訓得滯／唔想返屋企／旅行中

40.跟誰一起睡咧？
咁概括點答

41.能自己爬起床嗎？
我有手有腳唔係傷殘，當然可以

42.睡醒後第一件事情做什麼？
食煙

43.醒來後，你覺得昨天睡的好不好？
唔係日日好又唔係日日唔好囉

44.早睡早起、晚睡早起、早睡晚起；你是哪個？
我係睡左唔起

45.醒來後，發現頭髮亂的跟鳥巢一樣，你會如何處理？
梳返好佢囉

46.大概都幾點起床？
返工時咪１０點令囉

47.有賴床的習慣嗎？
有，唔賴唔開心

48.會起床氣嗎？
乜野係床氣唔識答

49.填完這份問卷後，你覺得『睡覺』對你來說是什麼？
訓覺就係訓覺，你會唔會諗得太多呀

《刻骨的愛人》

張小嫻著作
ｃｈａｐｔｅｒ６「不存在的桃源」
ｐｇ．１１８





「在別人身上尋找溫暖，是注定要失望的」




以前的我
不喜歡張小嫻
總是沒有感覺
沒有共鳴

現在才發現
原來是自己那時
並沒有真正感受
並沒有經歷
並沒有愛




我成為了自己曾經不明所以
曾經最笑過的那一種

看張小嫻
看得落淚

的人

書

今天上了ｙｅｓａｓｉａ
看到了終於等到
亦舒的新作
立刻做了指定動作

．．查看是否散文集

很奇怪
就算多喜歡那作者
都不會ｅｎｊｏｙ散文

長篇小說看畢後也會感到失落的我
無論如何接受不了散文

就連小白借給我
無數人介紹過
張小嫻《月亮下的愛情藥》
我也看不入眼

喜歡閱讀的我
連洗頭水的ｌａｂｅｌ也可以看得一清二楚
卻異常討厭散文
奇怪得很
我自己也不明所以

可能是內心一直不喜歡任何
短暫的東西

這亦應該是我
從未喜愛過
煙花
之原因吧

post

how do you get over something
thats etched into your mind?

do we ever get over things?
or do we just stuff it in the back of our brains
and hope it won't float out by itself, say, on a saturday morning
when you least expect it


i guess somehow
i knew
i mean, i know
we're born alone, right?
so maybe we're just meant to be alone

maybe there's just isn't someone for everyone
soulmates are overrated
you know wat
come to think of it
happiness is way overrated

who was the fucking jerk who made this shit up?
wat, so all thru life, we just suppose to wait
hoping that one day
we'll be lucky enough to finally meet the person?
that one fucking person
who knows and understands?

a soulmate is suppose to be
someone who knows wat you're thinking
and wat you're gonna say before you even say it, rite?
so if u know what i'm thinking
and what i'm gonna say next
do we ever talk?
or do we just stay together, forever in silence?
okay that sentence immediately put a picture of 2 dead bodies on my mind

ok...
too much tv for me

haha

i dun even kno where this is going
i'm just typing
for no apparent reason

i should stop drinking
i really should

numbing myself everyday
isn't the way to live


but then

life itself is numbing




i just noticed
i have trust issues

i dun believe in anything anymore

nothing lasts











in the end

we'll just be abandoned













i'm tired of ppl in my life always walking away

so to change that

maybe i should start walking away myself?






i'm lost
why does it still hurt?




everything accumulated
from the past

everything is a stab
on my back

i even started to think about cutting myself again
i was a cutter
i quit
yet i'm still a cutter inside


my shrink says that
i'm a person who likes to hurt
only by hurting i feel alive

thats not true i said
yet it is
i know
just can't admit







noone can help me get out of this
coz i dun wanna get outta it myself







i feel alone
everyday
24/7

even when i'm surrounded by people
i still feel alone
if not more alone





fuck

i dunno where this is going

i'm tired of typing now