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how do you get over something
thats etched into your mind?

do we ever get over things?
or do we just stuff it in the back of our brains
and hope it won't float out by itself, say, on a saturday morning
when you least expect it


i guess somehow
i knew
i mean, i know
we're born alone, right?
so maybe we're just meant to be alone

maybe there's just isn't someone for everyone
soulmates are overrated
you know wat
come to think of it
happiness is way overrated

who was the fucking jerk who made this shit up?
wat, so all thru life, we just suppose to wait
hoping that one day
we'll be lucky enough to finally meet the person?
that one fucking person
who knows and understands?

a soulmate is suppose to be
someone who knows wat you're thinking
and wat you're gonna say before you even say it, rite?
so if u know what i'm thinking
and what i'm gonna say next
do we ever talk?
or do we just stay together, forever in silence?
okay that sentence immediately put a picture of 2 dead bodies on my mind

ok...
too much tv for me

haha

i dun even kno where this is going
i'm just typing
for no apparent reason

i should stop drinking
i really should

numbing myself everyday
isn't the way to live


but then

life itself is numbing




i just noticed
i have trust issues

i dun believe in anything anymore

nothing lasts











in the end

we'll just be abandoned













i'm tired of ppl in my life always walking away

so to change that

maybe i should start walking away myself?






i'm lost
why does it still hurt?




everything accumulated
from the past

everything is a stab
on my back

i even started to think about cutting myself again
i was a cutter
i quit
yet i'm still a cutter inside


my shrink says that
i'm a person who likes to hurt
only by hurting i feel alive

thats not true i said
yet it is
i know
just can't admit







noone can help me get out of this
coz i dun wanna get outta it myself







i feel alone
everyday
24/7

even when i'm surrounded by people
i still feel alone
if not more alone





fuck

i dunno where this is going

i'm tired of typing now